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Tuesday, December 25th, 2001
9:57 pm	~****************~~MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY OTTAWA GIRLS! :)~~~******* lol you're my only live journal friends! :)))
Sunday, November 18th, 2001
12:24 pm	well well!! I FEEL GOOD! i finally slept in....*yay* i slept from 2 am whenever i got off icq, until almost 12!! yay...i dont think i'm goin to the santa claus parade...seeing as it starts in like 40 minutes and i'm not even out of PJs yet!! then again i did bust my ass downtown in like 20 minutes (somehow) to go see matt good...but with that modivation how could i not?! ryan and catherine are home! :))))) which is great! :) ha my mom knows how to get ryan out of bed, she cooks bacon and then suddenly the door opens and ryan's flying (floating) behind the aroma (just like in the cartoons......ok i have an imagination!!!) me thinks today i'm doing chem. all chem/hanging out with ryan! things with matt got better i think, he's very understanding that i havn't seen my brohter in like a month and i want to spend the weekend with him. i was with him on friday, it was fun! we just hung out with jenna and tyler (who's 2 year anniversary was on thursday....wow 2 years....) last nite i hung out with sarah and jen and melina and goran and eva and dimitry (goran's cute friend who thinks i'm hot!! :)) hes crazy i guess! :P ) i'm gonna head out tho, cleaning room (sorry i should told u all to be seated before sayign i was cleaning my room...in case of shock or heart conditions!! :) byebyes! Current Mood: satisfied
Friday, November 2nd, 2001
8:10 am	wow i was this close to not goin to school today...tha new MGB CD is just too good.....
Wednesday, October 31st, 2001
4:20 pm	kristy btw remember to ask me about ~*Matt*~
4:20 pm	*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*********HAPPY HALLOWEEN**************~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ so halloween really isnt' a big deal, but i still dress up, not as well as i used to but i look "foxy" in my josie/dylon costume (josie and the pussycats/charlie's angels) so it was fun!! i'm doing my volunteering tonite, for "halloween for hunger" it should be fun as well! well i better go! byebes
Monday, October 29th, 2001
7:29 am	so i survived yet another all niter...i have no slept since saturday nite....and i wont again until late tonite!! stupid oac gymm...maybe me stay up all nite doing the essay and then almost all of tonite to study for the test....EVIL!!!! but me gots to go get ready!
Friday, October 26th, 2001
7:16 pm	i took the geek test!! apparently i am 13% geek a wannabe geek! hah
Wednesday, October 24th, 2001
7:18 pm	wow my past week has been so filled with ups and downs!!! i mean friday was good, becuz well it was fridya, then i get home and Ron calls and says that our cousin Wayne passed away from cancer, after four years, so that was upsetting, but work was fun and peopel managed to distract me, saturday was fuh, went to screemers (kristy's glasses! AH) and the next day Carrie and me went to the viewing, so that was bad, but that night i went to "music without borders" which was awesome, and then stayed up till lik 3 and had to get up at like....7 to go into school and explain to my teachers/rugby coach that i would be away for a funeral. (i got to drive...yay!!) then the funeral, we left at 9:30 to get to oshawa on time, and then well that was horrible....very upsetting (what funeral isn't tho...) it was great to see all the family tho, i only see them at the reunion and at funerals! THen the reception and afterwards to Ron's house for "hotdogs" a la ron, and they all got drunk, i watched. i laugheD!!!!!!! then we got home at like 5, a LONG day, i kinda vegetated that nite...and tuesday was sad for me, i coudlnt' concentrate, all i could think about was how sad the whole thing is, and how i missed out on knowing a great person, but i'm glad that i heard all the good thigns about him at the service, so i'll never know any bad things, and he'll always have a great everlasting impression in my mind, the last tiem i talked to him was at Gran's funeral. THis whole thing made me relive losing Gran over and over and over again, so i fought tears all day...and peopel , like everyone noticed a difference in me, i never realized that peopel paid attention so much! then came work, which was alright, its work and its $$ which leads me to today...today has been great.....and i'm in great shape! i surprised myself at rugby todya, i outran everyone with no effort, and still had skill....it was great! which leads till now.....talking about these past few bumpy days! but i gotta go!
Friday, October 5th, 2001
9:41 pm	i watched mel get her tragus pierced today!! and i held her hand!! she was scared but brave and it looks SO GOOD!! tee is so cool, i like passage, i got two cartilages from her!! tomorrow i'm gettin my orbital lobe done at universal (planet ink) just cuz....i think it looks cool!!! then me goes to work so my fun drug plan didn't work1!! my grama and my dad were supposed to be goin up to the cottage tomorrow and since i'm workin gi couldn't go, and grama says that i can stay at her house whnnever i want, she gave me a key, and it was jenna's bday, so she wants to take E and now we have nowhere to crash cuz they're not goin to the cottage!! i wanted to watch her trip...damit! i dunno if i trust e.....so i dont do it! but yeah we were gonna go to playdium and stephi was gonna hook us up with free stuff!! booruns...but on the good side...my parents are now goin away NEXT weekend, and i'll have house to myself!!! :):):):):) small mini party....:) *yay* i talked to matt last nite (kristy, i mean matt tyler's matt, from like....2 years ago...the one that i messed up !!) yeah it was his bday so i called him from work and he told me to call him at 12, so i did, and we talked till 1:30 am, and then we were both tired so we hung up! i'm supposed to call him tomorrow afternoon but i'll be at my piercing fiasca!! boourns! gots to go!
Wednesday, October 3rd, 2001
7:03 pm	this is a poem-type thing, its really deep, my friend sent it to me, so i thought i'd put it on here and see what others thought of it: Portrait of a Teenager > > Laughing > carelessy > bright as the sun > her heart is > loving everyone > giving selflessly. > Model daughter, model student. > > Forced away > from everything familiar > roughly shoved into > difference > loneliness... > so scared. > Who will be her friend now? > Why doesn't she talk? > Why is she crying, we buy her everything. > Ungrateful. > Get out of bed > self-pity isn't allowed > smile, for chrissakes. > But clean your room first. You give me so much > trouble > I give you everything except > I'm busy > I don't have time right now > my legs are open too wide > go to someone else. > "People don't like me" > "I hate my face" > Shut-up. > What the hell is the matter with you? > > Abuse me more > like the song says > 'cause I like it > can I get you this? > Would you like this? > Would you > could you like me? > I'm not bad. > It's ok > I know it was an accident > it won't happen again > just like the last time. > Speaking > of accidents > so was I. > > I'll come. > Just for you. > I ignore what she says > she hates me > but your friends like me right? > That wasn't snickering > I heard > behind my back. > It wasn't ridicule > you want me here, > I know you do. > > Supressed > hidden > shamefully > frightened > of anything real. > Wall > brick > surrounding her > heart, > pain is too > surreal. > Former loved ones > doubting > can she even feel? > "Heartless selfish bitch!" > is all that still reaches her ears. > Embracing > everything ugly > black > darkness > in an attempt to > push away > dimpled thighs, > bulbous features, > tear-filled eyes, > mutilated skin, > a heart that's split > even more than her hair. > The essence > of everything that the media says > a teenager > shouldn't be, > but always is. > Black, black, black > darkness too suffocating > to see her own light. > Trusting once, > twice, > three times is the charm > that lifted the arm, with the hand > that reached for the knife > clutched it so tight > tight, > tightly > turning everything > upside down. > Pain was pleasure, > blood was soothing, > welted > flesh > temporary bandage, > to wear like a badge. > Blackened lungs, > filled with > smoke. > When was the last time > she had a meal? > Stony eyes, > carefully blank, > revealing nothing except > maybe here and there > a flicker > of a hate > that doesn't even resemble > human emotion. > Branded. > A stranger. > > What can make a devil, > feel human again? > What can make > a bitterness > too strong to even be in the same room with, > taste sweet like honey > again? > The same thing that will > unexpectedly > but so predictably > turn it all around again > and make it > hurt > even worse than before. > > I'm just a little girl... > > lemme know
Sunday, September 30th, 2001
3:09 pm	*yay* i volunteered for like the 4th year at CIBC Run for the Cure, and it was fun! as usual! This year i handed out water to the runners, and they were lke knocking me over!! it was funny, cuz this one man kept missing everyone's hands, dropping the water and not gettin any and each time he'd say "SHIT!! " so it was funny!! i have so many tests tomorrow!! i jsut studied for bio, and i have to study chem after work, which is where i have go now! :) ta ta
Friday, September 28th, 2001
7:47 pm	i am so bored right now. i'm sittin here on a friday nite, i told all my friends that i wasn't goin out with them, cuz i was gonna study and catch up...but thats just too boring, i cant do it!!! i have 3 tests.....ick........this sucks!!!
Thursday, September 27th, 2001
4:06 pm	so i skipped last period nutrition to come home and do my nutrition assignment...yeah i'm cool alrght!! i have a lab due tomorrow, and while i was doped uip on cold medicine and half asleep my friend managed to con me into goin to the pathetic and dumb dance at my school tonite...so i am almost done my lab, so i wont have to stay up extra late tonite! and i'll be even cooler tomorrow nite, when i'm stayign hom studying oac chem thte whole nite! but hey its worth it, i'm sick of goin "waa?" in class from not knowing what on earth is goin on.....just keep tellin myself organic chemistry is almost over....almost over....:)))) enuf school....whatelse is there? oh yeah scott...well i must get over him, i've wasted almost6 months liking him, and trying not to, and him playing games, and well, he likes me, not as much as before, but even more as a friend, and i like him too, but i like him as a friend a lot too...so i must completely get over him and just MOVE ON!!! :)))) gotta go finish lab, for evil psycho bitch teacher (third time having her, i own insulting rights to her...) Current Mood: aggravated
Wednesday, September 26th, 2001
4:45 pm	howdy! i'm still on a m. g. high...but i'm more sick than before! but it was worth it!! today was a latestart...woo-ey....only one hour classes, and i went to timmies at lunch, cuz all i can eat is toast, my stomach wont accept much else, and everythign else tastes like water! i ate doritoes, they tasted like water...adn we all know that they dont usually taste like water!! so yeah...timmmies mmmmmm.....i joined the United Way Executive council, so i have meetings at lunch all the time, doing food drives, assemblies, stair climbs....that should be fun! :) Current Mood: sick
12:03 am	OMG I MET MATTHEW GOOD......COULD I BE ANY HAPPIER?? I ALSO MET RICH (THE BASSIST) SO IT WAS AWESOME!!! i didnt' think i'd even get in, cuz i thoguht it would be packed, and i was too young, but it turns out it was all ages, and becuz barely anyone knew about it it was so small and intimate, and perfect, it was worth makin my cold worse treckin downtown in the rain!! and i got pictures with him, and rich, and got them to sign matt's book and got to chat with both of them, it was so amazing......i 'm in heaven...... Current Mood: ecstatic
Tuesday, September 25th, 2001
4:49 pm	I FINALLY UNDERSTAND NOMENCLATURE!!! its only a year late...but its never too late...cuz i have a test on it on thursday, i didnt' get it in gr 11, so at least i do now! it only took like the last 2 hours!!! woo-ey!! i stayed home today, i'm sick, i hate colds, and i'm so sick of OJ and other fluids, i shouldnt' have walked home in teh rain yesterday, and then went to work...booruns, but i needed a day off school to sleep and stuff....hopefully i'll be back tomorrow! i want to go to the Matt Good book reading.....should i go?? its at 7....i dunno if mommy will let me, cuz i was off school...i MUST got he's like NEVER in toronto anymore, and i missed him last nite, becuz his interview was rescheduled to a day that i was working on...and could not call in sick on...GRRRRRR i'm not 19, u hafta be 19 to get in, so i'd basically just be trying to get in, buying a book and leaving, but i hafta go downtown soon anyway to get my second upperearing looked at...its not healing properly...but my belly button is! (yay, so far...touchwood!!!) gonna go do more other chem crap! Current Mood: accomplished
Sunday, September 23rd, 2001
8:36 pm	so for some odd reason i got another piercing!! i didnt' plan it...it just happened! i went into Universal (now "Planet Ink") with kristi to get her belly done, and i ended up gettin mine re-pierced!! so i now have my second belly button ring....they had to go thru and around a lot of scar tissue from the last one....but i like it! :) and its not all gross liek when the way cool peopel did it, screwed it up, and screwed up my tongue...evil people...thank god universals there to save me!! that was yesterday, today i was supposed to go to snow jam, then kristi wanted me to help her move, so i didnt' go to snow jam, then kristi got in shit and had to go with her mom,...so i stayed home and cleaned my room....yay...but OMG DEGRASSI HIGH IS BACK!! THIS IS THE BEST THING THATS HAPPENED IN SO LONG I MISSED IT SO MUCH!!! :)))))))))))))))) i got really drunk last nite, lauren and scott were stoned, so we were quite the team.....it was hilarious! jen's parents were away...it was fun! friday i was supposed to go to a football game but it was raining like mad, so i went to my work to get this sheet signed and got suckered into a shift on saturday (yesterday, only 4 hours so it was cool, and ALEX was working :))))))))) and so was charles! :) then i went to the university fair downtown and got tons of free stuff...i think i still wanna go to Mac....:))) gonna go finish my room! Current Mood: accomplished
Wednesday, September 19th, 2001
7:00 pm	dont u hate rude kids? i mean i just babysat, and the kids i babysit are angels to me, they're great, just a little wild sometimes, but the friends they had over, they were brohters, one was really really nice, and the older one, he's in gr 6 was just completely rude, i was being nice to him and he was rude...and he'll be there every wednesday when i babysit..i hope his "rudeness" goes away, altho he was like this last year too! so i'm starting to get used to ryan being gone, i mean i talk to him more now (on icq) than i did when he lived here, its werid last year when him and catherine started goin out, i missed him emotionally, even tho he was physically living in the same house as me, and now that he's physically gone, i miss him emotionally, but now i talk to him more, so its not too bad! things will be ok! :) i have so much chem work to do tonite....must do good, must do good! melina came home, she was stuck in greece for an extra week becuz of the USA disaster, :( but she' s back now! :)) Current Mood: blah
Tuesday, September 18th, 2001
4:47 pm	ok so you know that you have a true friend, when u can fight with them, and be honest, even if you piss eachother off, then once everything is out in the open, you're able to forgive and forget, as apposed to not saying anythign at all, not telling eachother you're upset and forgetting about it, there's a difference, and i'm glad erin and i fixed everything today, cuz it was hurting both of us, and it only started yesterday morning! so its done....:) i think i'm anemic, the fact that i havn't eaten meat in a long time is probably why, well not probably....i'm dizzy all the time, and even tho lack of sleep might be a reason as to why i'm tired, i think anemia is why i'm like this...plus the constant headaches, and feeling crappy, plus i ran forl iek half an hour yesterday and i'm sore!! AH Current Mood: drained
Monday, September 17th, 2001
5:40 pm	so i really want my tattoo RIGHT NOW, my mom said its ok, she's just surprised i'm able to get piercings and want tattoos when i'm so scared of needles!i got a henna yesterday at wonderland and everyone thinks its real, ...awsome!! talk about a hell of a day....i dont feel like explaining right now, so i'll do it later Current Mood: annoyed